write_in_red | It Stings

Title: It Stings
Authors: Pyr0_grl
Fandoms: Supernatural
Pairings: Sam/Dean
Rating: PG-13
Wordcount: 530
Summary: Tattoos take on a whole new meaning when he's gone.
Disclaimer: No money was made...I'm poor...
Note: Beta'd by the lovely

tattoo_kink. :) Any errors left are my own.

It stings.

I’m not sure what I’m referring to, the pain from the needle injecting ink into my skin or if it’s deeper. The buzz of the tattoo gun is almost soothing, lulling me into a meditative state of sorts. I should probably be paying more attention to my surroundings while I’m under the gun; but I can’t bring myself to work up the energy.

I miss him.

I miss waking up each day knowing that he would be beside me. I miss his warmth, his laughter, his smile. So many things I didn’t appreciate when I had the chance, and now he’s gone. The girl inking me pulls the needle away from my skin and dabs at the drops of blood that are beginning to pool at the edges of my new mark. I take a deep breath as she starts back again, and then I fall into the fog again.

Getting this tattoo reminds me of the other one I have, the one we shared. Now I’ll have a mark all my own…and it doesn’t fill me with joy. It fills me with sorrow. It’s just one more thing I get to do that he won’t ever have the chance to. ThoughI know he would never do anything like this, putting something on his body to mark himself without really needing a reason to. The other tattoo had a purpose, keep the demons out. Check. This tattoo? It’s all about him. It’s to remind me what that deep ache in my soul is. But it’s more than that. It will remind me not only that he’s gone, but that he lived. Here…with me…

God, how I miss him. So much sometimes that I forget to breath…

She’s about done. Finally. I feel like I have been sitting here for years. When the she lays down the gun and starts the cleanup, I start pulling myself back together. As she explains the aftercare procedures for new tattoos I pull down the collar of my shirt to expose the other tattoo for a moment; going through the action brings memories of us showing that tattoo to another girl in close to the same way, a bittersweet smile crosses my face.

After paying for the work she did I thank the girl and head outside. The sun is bright and gleams off the classic car in the parking lot. I approach the driver’s side door and just lean against it. I know I’m supposed to keep the bandage on for a while, but I need to see it. I tug the tape from my skin and gaze down at the mark on my right wrist. It’s exactly what I wanted. I wonder what others will see when they look at it. Will they understand? It’s doubtful, but it doesn’t really matter anyway. I’m satisfied.

Before I seal it back up I run my finger around the edge and across the middle of the fresh ink. It stings. But it reminds me all the same. I slide into the seat and start the car. It’s time to get on the road. I have someplace I have to be.

To see the tattoo click here

Well. There it is. Tell me what you think if you have time. :) I hear comments are love.
Thanks for reading!

Great big hugs for

tattoo_kink, she answered a dozen e-mails asking questions about the story and the images. So thanks one more time!

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Oh my gosh...my soulsister

tattoo_kink send me the link to your story and I absolutely love it. I have two tattoos myself so I could picture the whole situation pretty good. ^^ You did a great job!

I read through some of the previous comments and while I was reading I thought it was Dean who was getting the tattoo. For me the tattoo says "death".

Thank you so much for your comments! :)

tattoo_kink is the best! :) She was super helpful, and answered all my e-mails without saying I was driving her crazy. :) Your Vegas icon is lovely, are you the friend traveling with her to Vegas? If so, I'm super excited for ya'lls vacation, you'll love it. :)

I'm glad I did a good job. I don't actually have a tattoo, but I planning on getting this one in the fall. Since I don't have a tattoo, I was just guessing on the zoning out part, but I figured that it would be pretty accurate for the actual process as well as for what he was going through at the time. The more I read through it, I think it's Dean too. LoL. I think I started out with it being Sam in my mind, because I'm a total Sam girl, but I guess the more I thought about last season it became Dean. However, I thought I would let the reader decide.

I see it the same way, my sister has this one already. We were supposed to get them together, but she couldn't wait. I think she's addicted...lol. :)

Thank you so much for reading! :)

I know she is. That's why she's my soulsister. *giggles* And yes, I am the friend traveling with her to Vegas. ^^

I don't know why I had Dean in my mind but I didn't really think about it. It was just clear for me.

Getting a tattoo together is a very strong bond and very special. My soulsister and I don't have the same but we both have something that connects us to each other. Others won't see it if they don't know it but it's there and I'm still glad I did it and I'm very touched that my soulsister has a part of me like I have a part of her.

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