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I never use this. Ever. I think the fact that no one I personally know, knows about this. I can write whatever I wish and the ones who usually judge my life can't say a thing about it; that's an attractive thought... I guess that makes writing, typing, positing...whatever...easier. I know that there is no way for word of my thoughts to reach those that they could hurt. Though that last thought begs the question, why do I care?
Life is different now. Life used to be simple, if you can believe that... Grow up; put in the obligatory years in high school; graduate; attend college; put in more obligatory years of schooling, possibly and in some cases most likely receiving a third rate education, graduate again, find a job, settle down, be a productive member of society. Yea, that seemed easy...till life crept in... Now I have completed most of those steps, but I dont' derive the pleasure I should from my achievements. Not to mention that in the last few years I have scratched the settle down options right off the list, in its place I have put survive.
Get up, go to work, breathe, do your job, go home, go to sleep...do it all over the next day. This isn't exactly how I pictured my life. I'm not sure what is more disappointing, the way my life turned out or the lack of drive I have to change it. Don't get me wrong, I am absolutely unsatisfied with my life right now, so I am endeavoring to change that. But even the changes I have put into motion won't take away the root of the problem...it won't take away the pain...
Life is different now. Life used to be simple, if you can believe that... Grow up; put in the obligatory years in high school; graduate; attend college; put in more obligatory years of schooling, possibly and in some cases most likely receiving a third rate education, graduate again, find a job, settle down, be a productive member of society. Yea, that seemed easy...till life crept in... Now I have completed most of those steps, but I dont' derive the pleasure I should from my achievements. Not to mention that in the last few years I have scratched the settle down options right off the list, in its place I have put survive.
Get up, go to work, breathe, do your job, go home, go to sleep...do it all over the next day. This isn't exactly how I pictured my life. I'm not sure what is more disappointing, the way my life turned out or the lack of drive I have to change it. Don't get me wrong, I am absolutely unsatisfied with my life right now, so I am endeavoring to change that. But even the changes I have put into motion won't take away the root of the problem...it won't take away the pain...