Count Down

[write_in_red]

The Count Down has started...I will be moving home to Oklahoma in 22 days and a wake-up. WOW. Now that the number is less than 30 I'm a little nervous.

Not sure why I'm moving home...ok. That's a lie. I'm moving home for a lot of reasons. Foremost being that I gave my family my word. I told them that I would stay up here after school for a year. If I didn't find a job or find someone to make me want to stay; then I would move home. Lease is up. J has been informed of D-Day and arrangements have been made...

I have to turn in my two weeks notice on Thursday...that's what really got me. I want to be closer to home for my family, but for me? I want to stay now. LoL. I'm so wishy washy. Well, ok. Not really. This has been on the books since I moved up here, but man, the realization that my live is getting ready to change irrevocably? Fuck. I am getting ready to move home to live with my G-ma, yea for rent free, try to find a better job. Worst part? I'm going to have to start all over. I am 24 years old. I have lived here since I was 18, that's 6 years. It's the longest I have lived in any one place my entire life...All of the friends I have made while I was learning who I am, as an adult, are all up here. I'm going to have to start over...color me terrified...

Anyway, count down has begun...damn it.

In other news, J is back from Vegas and visiting family and has returned home. Yea. Glad my Roommie is back. It was odd having the house to myself for so long. We went to a Pampered Chef party on Saturday, that was fun. :) Since I love to cook, going to a PC party makes me want to cook like crazy, as well as buy half the catalog. LoL. After the party we went through the car wash, and then came home to do the Spring cleaning. It was a bitch. No Lie. J's dog has long hair so he sheds more hair than the 4 of the women who live in the same house. It's crazy. Helped rearrange the living, when J didn't like it we put it back...pointless exercise... Especially since she warned me ahead of time that she wanted to move it, but it would end up in it's original layout. FML. Dusted, vacuumed, picked up, magic erasered off the marks on the walls, and changed out the light bulb in the hall way. Funny thing? J was going to call an electrician...for a light bulb change...what will she do without me?

J had a barbecue tonight, so that's why the huge need to Spring clean. Thank God Spring only comes once a year, and that I won't be around to do the Fall cleaning. F that. LoL.

So another week has come to a close. Joy of Joys. Can't sleep, though this time I do have a legitimate excuse. I took a nap today while it rained...best thing ever. I love when it rains. The only time I don't is when I'm wearing my boots. Rain is not conducive to cowboy boots, leather and all...

Truth time. I'm not only awake because I took nap. T called today. Said she had a hard time last night when someone asked her about Dad. She said she had to explain it like 4 times, because people kept coming in part way through the story. Apparently she had a total breakdown. I was like Fuck. She said one of her friends called one of her sorority sisters to come sit with her. The whole conversation, you know what stuck with me...other than the oddness of the timing, because I totally had my own little breakdown the night before, was her saying she was glad she had her friend there but that she kept telling people she needed her sister. So while I sometimes feel like I don't want to go home, I know I need to. Not just for T, but for me too. Two year mark is coming up...at least I'll be home before then.

OK! I will be positive! I cried and what not the other night. No need for a repeat so soon. What I will do is choose a fanfic from my list of SPN Big Bangs, enjoy a great story, and then go to sleep early enough for me to get at least 6 hours. I will! LoL. We'll see how that works.